I did it again. Even though I swore a few weeks ago that it was the last time, I had another breakdown in front of the kids. We had two separate visits from friends that made for a great morning, and then all hell broke loose.
I was breastfeeding Keira when I asked Mila to put away the box of toys she had dumped earlier. She decided to play legos instead. I asked her again several times, kindly, if she would put away, before my patience wears thin and I was then threatening to hide them so she couldn’t play with them again. She then threw the mini LEGO tower she had built at me (thankfully not hitting her sister).
And then I lost it. I screamed at her for not listening to me and then I broke down in tears. Full grown up sob.
I honestly don’t remember ever seeing my mom cry, and if she did, then I just don’t remember it. I can’t help but wonder if I’m doing this parenting thing right. I keep telling myself to stop yelling, and not to stress out so much but it’s so damn hard. It’s so much easier said than done.
I’ve been feeling like a complete failure in this “mom” thing and thinking that I’m letting my kids down but letting them see me cry and yell.
Does anyone else have these moments ?!